its been a month now since i've updated my blog, mainly cos i was damn lazy and busy with preps for Break Free Dance Party. i apologize to all of you who have been waiting so patiently for me to post up whatever i have to say. so here goes nothing..SORRYYYYYYY!!!!! should that be enough? XP haha..
first of all, i still don't know what i have to say in this post so i'll just randomly type out whatever that is on my mind and leave it for you to read..Deal??=3
the start of the year came rough for me cos of an incident that happened after coming back from Break Free Dance Party involving Evelyn and Julie..i don't want to go into details in this matter. just something that i still feel guilty until now..then came school=.= having to wake up at 5.15 am every morning is sooooo crappy..the first thing that was said to me when i went to school was, "Quick, go duty liao!!" for the ones that do not know, yes, i am a prefect..and the last thing i want to do is do my duty..being in the senior year makes me lazy to do all that stuff, like catching students smoking or without nametags and whatever..its just two weeks now and i have to face a mere 6 months more..how bad can it be rite? *sarcastic laugh*
this is to those who have partners already as in couple partners..heh..i've been asking God why do You keep making me sad? Why do i get sad when i can't see the one i love? i still haven't gotten that answer yet..i've asked around my school, my close friends mostly, what its like when they don't see their gfs..im not supposed to be sad, but happy..i made that deal already but it seems that that deal has been broken..cyril told me he misses his one, but he gets to see her every friday before ycs..everywhere i go i hear people missing another person..i have that feeling as well but i cant seem to take it away and i think its getting to me..and i think the Devil is playing a part in pulling me down when God is supposed to be carrying me up in His arms when i'm down..its taken its toll lately and i think shes feeling it as well..i keep praying that God will help me find my way back into His arms and continue to be the happy-go-lucky guy i am before..she told me this quote that has been stuck in my head since she said it, "distance makes the heart fonder" and i guess shes rite..i think for now i just have to deal with whatever i have in front of me and not think so much of it..the love will not go away, i know for sure..
if i have offended anyone who read this post, i deeply apologize. im a changed man. i don't want to hurt anyone before like i hurt her before.
thank you..
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment